Sunday, December 1, 2024
Pewter Suitor, LP version by Tyrannosaurus Rex
Friday, November 29, 2024
Outkast - Hey Ya! (Official HD Video)
Thursday, November 21, 2024
Peter Laughner - Cinderella Backstreet
Monday, November 4, 2024
Been A While
Alert the media! Blogger found alive!
An apology would be polite, but I'm not inclined to offer one. The nature of time itself takes on different aspects as one moves through the stages of life. It's one of those things that overtake us without reference to our desires.
I came across a fragment of a poem used as the heading of a chapter in a nice book that I'm in the middle of. It hit me as illuminating a bizarre epiphany-like experience that I had last year. My two sons, both good men by all accounts, are now officially in middle age, which means that the experiences of their lives are beginning to take on new aspects for them as well. My oldest contacts me by the Line app or e-mail about one time per year; my youngster, much less frequently. I had always been proud of them, and I had a firm belief that I had been an okay father. It seems that even that estimation may have been overly optimistic.
I know that poetry is avoided by more clever bloggers, being the boring literary equivalent of someone talking about their dreams. But here's the fragment:
Poem title: A German Requiem, by James Fenton, an Englishman
It is not what they built. It is what they knocked down.
It is not the houses. It is the spaces in between the houses.
It is not the streets that exist. It is the streets that no longer exist.
It is not your memories which haunt you.
(It continues...)
It is not what you have written down.
It is what you have forgotten, what you must forget.
This was quite a kick in the chest for me. What I realized last year, thanks to my son's concise prompting, was that I was living in a dream world. I was nothing like the middling and kind of okay dad and husband that I had considered myself to have been.
I had forced myself to remember only what I had built, ignoring what I had knocked down. I was concentrating on the houses, when I would have done better to pay more attention to the spaces in between the houses.
I was considering only my memories, even though I am quite familiar with my survival technique of enforcing a strict policy of forgetting many of the things that had happened to me and, I'm afraid, many of the things that I had done.
Porco dio, how I hate being old. No surprise though. I also hated being a boy, being an adolescent, being a young man, being a grown up, being middle aged, and everything in between. I was a baby that failed to thrive, but lacked the dignity to die.
Wednesday, August 21, 2024
Cafe
Monday, July 1, 2024
Velly Joonas - Stopp, Seisku Aeg! (FULL 7", soul, Estonia, USSR, 1980-1...
Wednesday, June 12, 2024
PJ Harvey & Björk cover the Rolling Stones' "(I Can't Get No) Satisfacti...
Thursday, June 6, 2024
Magic Sam ~ All Your Love and Lookin' Good
Tuesday, April 23, 2024
The Internet Is Sinking, And It's Taking Us Down With It
It gives me no joy, and only a bit of relief, to know that the individual who left two disagreeable comments in March of last year has crossed the river.
Not to worry, though. You open the door to such rough handling when you leave the comfort of a simple, anonymous life and write a blog. I cannot say that they did not phase me at all, but the reality of it is that I am much harder on myself than any of my critics could manage.
Those comments were reassuring in their way. They were a human touch to our constantly evolving Internet. At the very least it is quite unlikely that they were generated by an AI bot. And likely that they were not planted for the purpose of positioning any other blog above mine in the order of importance that AI is in the process of creating and refining.
I'm sure that you have all noticed by now that the Internet is becoming less useful, less enjoyable, and more of a tool of oppression than we had been accustomed too during its Golden Years. Google search? Clogged with money grabs. YouTube? I never thought that I would see twenty minute advertisements. Facebook? Fishing scams, hacks, and contact with maybe six of your friends. This will only get worse as time goes on. Always the reduction in human input, and always the ever more voracious cash grabs.
Strange things happen because websites of all types are entirely machine operated now. All you want to do is some simple thing, like sign up for a streaming service, or renew a magazine subscription, but the machine misinterprets something and says, "no way, Jose." This kind of thing has happened to me several times in the last year. In each case, there is no opportunity to contact the vendor. No chat button. Remember those? There were always pleasant, knowledgeable Indian twenty-somethings ready to help you. In my experience, they did a very good job. I don't have problems of first impression, no problems that are particularly challenging. Very run of the mill. The young person takes care of it almost immediately.
No, now we just hit the stone wall of the machine. Frankly, I have a low impression of any company that would release such defective software to accomplish its business with consumers who simply want to sign up for something and pay with a long established credit card that works. And the wall is made of genuine stone. "We're sorry, but your IPO doesn't match the address on your credit card." End of story. No Deezer for you! The list goes on. One of the world's largest corporations, with whom I have been doing business for decades, refused to recognize that I was me, even though I signed in at the IPO that I used to buy software from them fairly recently and signed in with the user name and password that they gave me on that occasion. Their machine gave me a series of tests designed to prove that I was me. The questions included, "what were the subject lines on your last ten e-mails?" Again, no possible way to contact a human being, where the problem would be solved in two minutes. "Please send me a photo of you holding your passport next to your head." Even I could do that fairly quickly, and I'm not good with this stuff.
Has everyone noticed that the new scam is that you can't buy software anymore? Now you only buy a "subscription." What you used to pay for the software now only covers you for a year, and you must pay with a credit card and allow automatic renewals. This is neoliberalism at its apex of piracy. Increase the number of contracts, and reduce the duration of contracts. Textbook stuff. And annoying.
So far, every year since 1999, I have hated the Twenty-First Century more each new year than the last. Although, as I have said before, it does take the sting out of imminent death.
Sunday, April 7, 2024
Sadistic Mika Band in UK TV show “Old gley whistle test “1975 サディスティック ...
Friday, March 1, 2024
Tired of Trying, Bored with Lying, Scared of Dying
Wednesday, February 28, 2024
New Challenges For Travelers
There is a remote chance that I will return this year for a visit to the country of my birth. That would be America, specifically California. Six years have passed since my last visit, and it appears to me that the situation on the ground has changed dramatically. The changes have not run in favor of an easy and comfortable trip.
The new COVID variant,
Omicron, is statistically significant and obviously dangerous. Every day,
people are contracting the disease. People are being admitted into the
hospital. Most impressively, people are dying. In spite of that obvious threat
level, I don’t see a lot of masking going on. Instead, I hear a lot of yelling
about not wanting to wear masks, and freedom, and you can’t tell me what to do,
and take off that mask you fucking commie. Has any work been done about the
possibility that COVID has a potential psychological impact? Subtle, perhaps,
but acting to make sufferers irritable and unreasonable?
If, indeed, I do travel to
the indispensable country this year, I will be masking. Probably double
masking. I have seen examples of masked people being accosted in retail
establishments or travel situations for having the freedom-hating temerity to
wear a mask. As though, perhaps, the only possible explanation could be that
the masked individual was a libtard, or under the spell of ex-President Obama
and his puppet, Joe Biden. I have formulated a strategy to use if I am faced
with this behavior in a convenience store or something.
My play will be to feign
weakness, cough into the mask, and say in an unsteady tone, “I’m sorry. I was
in Africa for six months (cough) and my doctor thinks that I was exposed to
Ebola. He says I must wear (long, wet, wheezing cough) this mask to protect
(cough) other people.” (Reaches out to lean on something, holding chest and
coughing.) “Oh, shit! I forgot my rubber gloves!”
It was a lot of fun to run
this strategy past a couple of friends of mine, but I know that in reality it
would only make someone want to shoot me. A lot of the unreasonable Americans
are now strapped.
Monday, February 19, 2024
Proof Of Life
Alive, although that condition is subject to change. I am typing on a new laptop, using a version of Word called, “Home and Student.” I am finding it very peculiar in many ways. Things tend to disappear. I am finding that as time marches on, computers in general become more difficult to use, less functional, and less intuitive. It’s annoying. Or perhaps it’s just that life is passing me by, which is true one way or the other.
Blogspot is full of moribund blogs. The reasons are many, and the phenomenon is interesting. Many people set up a cute blog and post two or three times about the wonders of cats. And that’s it, the blog idea expends itself. Perhaps they were killed by their cats. Many people, like Doghouse Reilly, set up a blog and write fantastic posts for years about mostly politics, with some culture and a little sports thrown in for variety. His blog disappeared. He was ended not by cats, but by the human condition, which stalks us all. I still draw breath, but I have reached the age where the entire horizon is sufficient only for a vague terror of waiting for the other shoe to drop. The nearness of death inspires some people. Others, like me, are merely paralyzed by dread.
Best wishes to all. I should
be writing more soon.