Thanks for the comments, I really appreciate it.
Thanks even for the slap. Whoever you are you hit it right on the head, except maybe the last part.
Here's a poem for any other semi-old, slightly bitter College Pointers out there:
Did anyone think of us?
Certainly we hoped not,
Better to go on with one’s business unobserved.
Did anyone love us?
Certainly it seemed vaguely possible only
To the lucky ones,
And the rest of us had given up.
The next bottle of Colt, the next Kent, a stolen Modern Man,
Life’s simple pleasures delighted us,
And we endured ordinary reality,
Hating ourselves and each other,
And hating especially the happy ones among us, the unconfused,
There were some,
I remember them,